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OOC Information;
Name; Dana
Personal Journal; deadangle
Contact; lastend @ plurk, love examination @ AIM
Other Characters; Jessia Ushiromiya (dokkyun)


IC Information;
Character Name; Mami Tomoe
Canon; Puella Magi Madoka Magica
Canon Point; Post-EP3
Age; Fifteen

House; Sigyn
Power; Healing

Personality; To the outside world Mami presents a front of utter perfection. An ideal, perfect student, a proper and polite, kind young lady, an older sister figure and an admirable upperclassman as a normal human; as a Magical Girl, she is an ideal and a hero and ally of justice, who is not only competent in battle but fights precisely to save people regardless and outside of her own self interests and benefits, often at the expense of them. She risks her life not just to fight witches to collect Grief Seeds but so help people and save lives; she would kill a familiar instead of letting it grown into a witch first as so to prevent it from killing people, even if it means that she won't gain a Grief Seed out of it.

This translates into daily life, as well; anyone who meets and gets to know Mami would receive a very strong impression of a sensible and pleasant young woman. She's a cheerful girl nearly constantly wearing a smile on her face, yet she's also calm nearly at all times, rarely wearing an expression other than her serene smile except when the conversation turns to serious topics. It's difficult to believe that she is fourteen as she seems to have the mental age of a young woman- she has the maturity, the polite and formal speech, the self-control and responsibility that's rarely seen in even adults. She's exceedingly helpful, ready to take on anything for her juniors and assist others in any way, but along with that, incredibly modest, never seeming to need any sort of praise or acknowledgement for her efforts. Her speech is always kind and gentle, aside of being simply formal and polite; but she's not in any way weak or a doormat, and she's certainly quite capable of standing up for herself and struggling and going through difficult things; her prowess as a magical girl is an extension of this.

All in all, Mami appears to be nearly perfect in every way. Except—once you get to know her better— you begin to feel slowly, eventually, that there's something- simply not quite right about this. As though this personality of hers is actually a barrier that she puts to separate you two, to not let you come close and that keeps a constant distance between you two. And in a way, this is true. This front of an admirable, perfect senpai, a friendly, cheerful and happy, calm girl- that part is something of an act. It acts as a sort of very thick and sturdy wall and barrier, a sort of armor, to protect herself and to further deeply bury her true nature. Because, underneath all this Mami is a complex young woman, nearly too complex than a girl her age should be- and above all, she's deeply, painfully lonely and broken. Mami became a magical girl through an accident that killed her parents, and almost killed her. It was right at that time when Kyubey appeared, offering her to grant a single wish in exchange for making a contract with him and becoming a magical girl. She made the wish in desperation, without giving it much thought- and in this, she saved herself, but not her parents- and the survivor's guilt still tortures her, constantly, nearly every day, and the deep and painful regret, not for making the wish, but for wording it the way she did.

Mami lives alone in a life of utter and absolute isolation all alone in her apartment, the only one knowing about her secrets being magical girls and Kyubey, not someone she exactly trusts- and other magical girls aren't exactly easy to trust either, seeing as they don't normally get together and team up when they meet each other; the relationships between the Puella Magi are full of mistrust and competition. She does nothing but go to school and hunt Witches all day, leaving no time for doing the most mundane of things; for friends, for school, for even the slightest bit of fun, living her life in suffocating loneliness. She is starved for the littlest, slightest bit of friendship, for any form of affection, no matter how small; she is desperate, and because of this, where she saves Madoka and Sayaka from a witch, when given and opportunity to make friends she jumps on it, even clings to it, in her desperation- and, when Madoka tells her she wants to become a magical girl just for the sake of becoming one, and tells her she wants to fight by her side as a fellow magical girl- she breaks down and cries, not in sadness but in happiness, at finally having found what she was waiting for.

She is, as mentioned, a very mature young woman; she's also very clever and intelligent, and this is not always a good thing. In the right situation, this reveals a much, much darker side to Mami's personality; ruthless, threatening and mock, scarred and emotionally corrupted by witnessing horribly, deeply unpleasant things with her own eyes as a result of fighting Witches every day, and this is how her maturity and apparent true mental age becomes a little frightening. She's even ready to be a little manipulative if need be, and more than that- to kill. Still- in the end, even that is something she does for the sake of the people she cares for; once one gets past Mami's barriers and gets her to open up and trust them, not to mention value and care for them- her loyalty knows no bounds. This ties into the very motherly, protective side of her personality- she admitted that she deliberately tried to act like a mentor towards Madoka, and that role- one of a reliable, helpful older sister figure- is one she takes on very willingly and intentionally.

And that as well can be both a good and a bad thing; despite what she seems like, Mami also hides a side of her that is quite unstable, and her protectiveness and the way she takes her role as a mentor so seriously can get very, very dark. Upon finding out the truth about what happens to Puella Magi she breaks down completely and goes insane, then attempts to kill the remaining magical girls so they won't have to become Witches- and would have probably killed herself as well if she had succeeded- crying as she does so. In her eyes, this is truly for the best, and a strange and twisted form of looking out for them as she always does- like this, they won't have to fall into despair and become Witches, meaning she could prevent the birth of several Witches and as a result, prevent more people form dying and getting hurt as well.

Mami is, above all, someone who bottles up everything she feels, everything going through her mind, all her difficulties and troubles and anything unpleasant and buries it deeply, deeply inside under a facade of happy, calm self-confidence and stability. The truth being completely opposite; she's emotionally very, very fragile, bottling up so many things until they pile up so much that they overwhelm her and burst out open, and when that happens she can't talk to anyone, she can't let it out- she can do nothing but cry to herself alone to ease her pain slightly, for a temporary time, and forcefully bury them back and again, because she has no choice; there's nothing else to do with those things. She is painfully, overly aware of her own flaws and her perception of herself is muddled because of this- she is someone who can only see the ugly sides to herself because she is so self-aware; she does not see herself as admirable or praiseworthy in any way. Finally, she is deeply bitter and cynical, not contributing to her strange self-hatred issues. However- she is not a bad person. There is a reason that she fights and struggles and works so hard at her own expense; her kindness is more than genuine, and she truly, honestly wants to help and save people. She has been broken deeply and her morals skewed with, but she still remains, deep down, the genuinely good person, the fifteen-year-old girl who just wants to be happy and make people feel happy if she can.